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We've both put in too much to quit. We've +all+ put in too much to give up. But someone's got to lose. Someone has to get hurt. No one can win, not really. I know what I want. I know what outcome I'm hoping for. I don't think you can be that strong, and I don't think I can be that selfish. I can't ask you to give him up when you aren't even sure if you want me. I'm so tired of hurting you. I'm tired of being a flake, tired of not being what you need, tired of not being able to fix this. I'm tired of being tired. He's too much for you to lose, and too much for me to stay. I don't know how to pull us through this. I can't quit, but I don't kn

All it takes is a second. A thought, a look, a missing smile, and you're gone, back where you were, back in the game that nobody wins.

I want to be different. I won't make your mistakes. I'll make my own. I'll break hearts my own way. I'll break hearts my own way. I'm hearing you as if from far away. Your suddenly so far away. If your body is his and your heart is hers, what's left for me? I  want this to not have happened. I want to be the fuck enough for once. I want you to love me enough to choose me. I want you to want me. Not him. I want to replace her and I want forever and I just don't want to hurt anymore. I want to matter and I want the words and the promises, 2am and eclairs to *mean something*. It can't all be for nothing. It can end at this. It ended before